Since my last post, it has been really difficult for me to find the right words to put in my blog. It's not that I don't have the time, I just refuse to sit down and collect my thoughts together.
My husband's gone to Singapore yet again for pleasure and for work. His company organised a Staff Day and treated all their staff to a day at the Universal Studio. He'll be staying for a few more days after that for work purpose. So, here I am home alone again.
I've been trying very hard to occupy myself with work so that I have no time left to have other thoughts. I'm thankful and grateful for all the kind and concern comments on my previous post but I still don't have the courage to face the worst. I am a very emotional person and I can't be strong as I want to be. I'm already broken in parts and I'm not ready to be broken to pieces.
It hurts so much just by being around pregnant ladies and looking at babies. I'm happy for them but I also envy them. 3 Ladies & A Diary... Do you remember why 3 Ladies? It was suppose to be a single lady, a wife and a mother. I met up with my classmates recently and one of them asked me, "We already have our hands full, so when's your turn?". How I wish I have the answer to that question.
I've started attending yoga classes again with hopes that it would help with my situation. I'm also going swimming once a week. My mom bought me some chinese herbs to help as well. I was hoping that this month would be a regular month but it's absent again.
All things happen for a reason?
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